Hard to be none other than ourselves

Brrr
Brrr…

Winter is coming and you are already started planning forward, in the middle of the summer when sun came out for half of a day and then it rained for the three next days. Thanks to global warming, el Niño and your luck, you cannot know the future – but who cares about the forecast – you keep your raincoat everywhere: matted in your purse, in your backpack or in any other bag you carry. There’s no reason to pack an umbrella – they are for masochists. Rain almost always means strong winds that will turn your umbrella around like a giant spoon and make you horribly wet. How fun! The trick is to have a nice and long raincoat with a beautiful and big hood to cover you up. Some vintage fashionistas still use rain boots which are really cute. However, it’s hot even though it’s raining and you can’t stop your feet from sweating like hell…

First world problems. There are more pressing matters in my way: taking language tests, applying to university studies I’ve been seeking for months, asking for a comparative evaluation of my Peruvian studies (I did several in order to be part of the EAP and some of them helped… or maybe all of them), considering important projects which will mean leaving some things undone, pick some others where I’ve left them or start new stuff. In the middle of it all, my usual routine, job-home, days with 30-minute hours (I already discussed it endlessly and – forget it – that additional second did not change my life at all).

Along with this comes the biological need for painting until falling dead but realizing that there is not enough time, unless some Time Turner or Time Lord magically appears to help me. Winter is coming again and I’ll be cooped up in this northern white inferno. It is imperative to keep my mind and body healthy because I don’t have the luxury of becoming sick. That’s life, my dear. What a disgrace.

But…

But there are moments when I realize I have access to new special levels of happiness and wellness -even with the anguish of the future- that I’ve never had before in my life. I keep them for myself, initially, but later I share them with those who are close to my heart. I do so because I would like to thank to them, mostly; because anything that I achieve, or I already have or I will even have in the future, are always the product of a complicated tour where a lot of people appear. A multitude.

 

Thanks Nancie for the corrections!  You are awesome…as usual…